I used to think I am very different from others. Now I realize all it is, is that I am being that different. EVERY single person is different, unique, it is simply being that, that makes the difference.
 You see it is all about fear of connection. We can go both ways. Into being vulnerable accepting that connection merging with other beings, being us as this is what is natural to us as humans, to be the caring sensitive beings we are, or we can be stupid and choose to resist this connectivity we have, judge it and try and separate us from the other, have wars, fight, struggle, create problems, resisting the fact that we are all the same – beautiful and unique.
We are ALL the SAME – BEAUTIFUL & UNIQUE  My one wish before leaving Canada was to see a coyote. I even went out last night into the forest in hopes of seeing one. I got to hear one which was a gift in itself. Today I went exploring the forest. I did ask “what if I saw a coyote?” as one of my questions but not with any seriousness, my mind came in and said not going to happen its day time. Enjoyed a beautiful walk in the forest. Just now on my way back I was strolling along and thinking ,and got hit by this awareness, this realization, and I start balling my eyes out. After a minute I just had a feeling to walk off the path to my right into the forest, as I walk I look up and see something moving. It was a f…….g coyote!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I walked up closer. It stopped and we looked at each other for a few minutes then off it went. It was sssoooo beautiful!!!! Sooo beautiful!! I was just crying with tears of joy because I was soooo happy and grateful!!!! omg the timing was perfect. Such a gift!!! It took 5 months to see one but it happened and I mean what more magical moment than that? tralalalala…yuupppeeee!!!!! Zipitydoda! I just wore a huge smile on my face all the way back and still am. Yaaayyyy!!!!! I just saw a coyote, I just saw a coyote...yeeesssssss!!!!!! :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) :-)  I hadn’t planned anything for my birthday all I had scheduled was I had my appointment at the Greek embassy to renew my passport. I asked the day before to myself, “Show me my capacity with having a different kind of birthday and with making it special.” I also asked as my body was feeling it strongly “what if I received a massage?”
WELL! I went into the embassy, they were behind schedule and the room had filled up. I had a blast waiting in the room. I love the chaos we have in Greece, and the intimacy among people, it is just different. And we are so funny, we are so chaotic, it’s hilarious! It was a comedy act in there, a great little funny movie script between everyone’s comments and actions. I laughed so much with everyone’s comments and what was going on. Especially the 90 year old Greek man, complaining how there is not one behind the desk, making all these funny remarks and completely deaf, I had to go right up to his ear and yell in order for him to hear me, and then watching him try to communicate with the person at the desk and just saying yes to everything because he can’t hear lol. Using the statement “show me something funny today,” every morning and then affirming with how does it get any funnier than this?” really is my favorite. I loved that I got to speak my language that was a gift in itself. I loved joking and talking to the woman who does the passports, and the lovely man that works there. And listening to the chaos of well nothing is certain you do everything by the book but yet there is no real order. She tells me the passport photos are useless, they did not do them correctly and that it happens all the time. I was very upset because I had made a point to ask them at photo place if they know. I swear life arranged all this perfectly. She gives me the address for this place. I go searching. When I reach the address I see no photo place just a beautiful building (didn’t click in my head). So I go walking and walking searching thinking, she gave me the wrong address. Finally I walk back and realize it was correct it was just kind of like a fancy mall so there are many stores in there. I get my photos and then I had to go to the bathroom, I decide not to wait until I get to the embassy. The washroom of course needs a key. So I walk up to the security guard behind the desk. What do I see there though! A young man in a lot of pain huffing and puffing and the guard calling an ambulance. I walk up to him and asked him if there is something I can do to help. He says “yes can you grab my arm,” I grabbed his arm and began massaging his back for about 20 minutes. (this is the massage hahaha..sometimes the universe has a big sense of humor!) as his whole back was spasaming up to his neck having all kinds of weird sensations, and having difficulty breathing. As soon as I started massaging him he felt better and he calmed down. I began talking to him and joking with him. The ambulance said they were busy would take them a while as they are having a busy day they actually insinuated for him to stand outside and in the cold and rain to wait which we did not do. After I had him lay on the ground as he was in too much pain to stand. Unfortunately right there was the vent blowing right in his face so we got to laugh about that too. I held his hand. When his pain was intensifying I got him to focus on his breathing. When it got bad I did a little hypnosis with him and to my surprise he responded fantastically, he stopped groaning and moaning and flowed with me with our visualization, being very calm. We went through a whole series of stuff, calling his mother, moving him away from the vent trying to keep him, warm blabla… The guard was participating as well behind the desk. I was so surprised at all the hundred’s of people walking around I am sorry but being insensitive doing their thing. Only three people asked. Made me feel people are such robots! Anyway… We had some nice discussions which kept him distracted. Apparently he had gone to the hospital the week before with this intense pain, and they let him go after two days they couldn’t figure it out. I tried to explain to him that just because it is a hospital doesn’t mean they know anything, and that he should maybe look into something else. The hospital kept calling and asking how he is doing but that they are backed up. And they are processing in order of severity. He was starting to get angry of course because he was feeling more and more pain and so was I getting a little frustrated of course watching him more importantly feeling him. Apparently he has been in car accidents three times. He is only twenty two years old. I joked with him at one point, “soon they are going to have to take me with the ambulance if they don’t come soon,” because I was starting to be in pain leaning down on the marble floor and my back hurting bahahahaha…. The ambulance took three hours to come…..can you imagine? I was just thinking how they say there is order in the world but it is pure illusion there is no such thing its complete delusion…the whole system and how this universal reality works is unorderly, it is ridiculous but yet everyone takes it so seriously. I find it hilarious. You have to do this and that this procedure. Nothing makes sense but yet most think it does and everything is perfect when it is complete illusion and pretend. You can in no circumstances take it seriously. The timing was orchestrated perfectly, if they had not been late at the embassy, if I had not had to retake the photos and gotten lost, and had to go to the bathroom I would have not been there at that moment. So here is to EVERY beautiful moment of that day!!!!! The whole time I was there with this person it was a beautiful experience a beautiful feeling. I actually had a lot of fun, and I am VERY GRATEFUL I was able to be there for him. Between the embassy experience, having at least 35 trees planted for my birthday (as it was my birthday wish), and being there receiving and contributing to this person I would say, huge gift and YES the best birthday I have had so far :-) :-) :-)  What if the” key,” to sex is being able to be ourselves at that moment, allowing our body to speak for itself, to guide the process, and leaving the mind behind? That’s what it comes down to. We have sex with our minds not with our bodies, it is 80% mind 20% body, and there is a massive difference. We have sex the way we think we should, what we think is the “correct” process, what we think the other person wants, or needs, what we have been taught right? By those cultural, societal, and universal beliefs and ideas? It is the boundaries of our minds, whether placed there by society, held there by ourselves, or the reservations of the other, that deny us our true pleasures in life. Spending too much time in those beliefs hindering us from true expression of our emotional arousal and actually enjoying ourselves, and the experience with another, we rob ourselves the true essence of what love making is all about. There is nothing to think about, if we let the energy flow through feeling, breathing, and being present in the moment with our senses guiding us to endless ecstasy. Our bodies know. Yet we block that freedom, that flow. Most humans do not know what this feeling is because they haven’t experienced it with themselves.
We come in with all these judgments, conclusions, and expectations. We do not allow our bodies to take the lead, to allow them to communicate between each other. I wonder what would be possible then? Sex could almost be like the ultimate form of being you, because that power now is double, it is amplified, two people being themselves forget it, that is sex at its best! Ecstasy beyond reality maybe one of the most amazing experiences ever. An intimacy which does not necessarily need time to reach it with the other, you could have it with a stranger, and just from the first time. Perhaps it is easier for people then because the mind is not playing so much of a role, it is spontaneous, it is unexpected, we do not have time to create those barriers, those walls, fears, insecurities, and judgments. It is “safer,” and then we begin bringing all these conclusions and judgments. This is possible yet only works if both are being themselves, because if the one isn’t and cutting off pieces of themselves the flow is broken, there is no flow, only stagnation. There’s a flow one second then it stops, then goes, then stops. The body’s freedom has been limited. After all it is about the body’s pleasure isn’t’ it? I personally achieve this feeling sensation whatever you would like to call it through dance, and through other means as well, but at that level the highest level, I have reached through dance. In sex it is a whole another level, to share that we another human being. Yes we do not need the other person to reach that level where our body takes the lead, where nature truly takes its course, and one second to the next is unexpected, where we are truly being ourselves, where there is nothing but being, and ecstasy. We mostly have a few moments here and there through different means, and while having sex. It is about living through your body, rather than through the world, living through you, not the matrix. We CAN have that intimacy with ourselves and our bodies, how about achieving it double though? To share that with another person? What a gift it is to be yourself TOGETHER, and in full acceptance of each other? The bodies just go crazy. Now that’s ecstatic and powerful it’s an amplification of that ecstasy, that feeling times a thousand! Yes we can feel it on our own yet that is quite something to achieve that with another. Our happiness does not depend on it, and we can share this with people, with moments here and there in other ways but what if we could do that with sex as well? Is it not something profoundly beautiful? How many people want to let go of control? Control of the mind I mean? Because that is actually when we truly have control, that is when we finally achieve control. We give our body control not the outside world, it is truly us, not the illusion of control by the mind. Maybe that is why people are so attracted to sex because it is a means of allowing the body to finally speak and BE, we can’t do it on our own so we need the other, yet we go about it as not self. We don’t truly have sex as ourselves, only partly. I always have had this intimacy with myself, many do, I love being with myself more than anyone, I laugh, I have a great time, I am complete. So what about achieving that with someone else? What if we could share that with another? Being our self with another, now that is a fun challenge! To achieve this with another, not using the other, not needing the other, but choosing to be, and share our self whether it is for just a few moments, a few years, or a lifetime. Whether we have that intimacy with ourselves doesn’t really matter in this case because it s a two way process, and doesn’t mean we will share our being with the other or receive the other. Sex is one means of being our self and giving our body expression, allowing it to speak and breathe but most times we get lost in the other, we are interacting and conditioning each other at that moment, this is natural. Inadequacies, insecurities, fears, and so we block ourselves from being and receiving. It is a whole nother level to do it as us to truly feel it, and be it. Not many people achieve this because we are not taught it as a possibility; we are going in fixed with our mind, not open or receptive as to what it could be. What if we remained in our own bodies, within ourselves while having sex? Even better why limit ourselves? What if we went beyond and had an outer body experience? I wonder…. Did you ever feel you were going to explode? Being you is easy but being beyond yourself with another being now that is magic!!!! An opening into a new realm, a merging. In that sexual environment allowing the other to be, no judgment, being nurtured by each other for that, desiring that for each other, being in full allowance of self, and the other, and actually encouraging the other no matter what that might be, and the circumstances, and then bringing that into the sex…BOOM! Here is to more of this in 2017!!!!  I went forest exploring today. As I walked a few steps out the door there were these 5 squirrels on a tree a few steps away they were running up and down and after each other..just joy and playfulness…I had to go back to get my camera. By then they had more to other trees..aaahhh…they made me laugh so much!
Had a very nice walk in the forest this is the first time I have ever seen water iced over…I found it quite interesting especially seeing the roots of a tree under the ice. And on the way back I saw this beautiful woodpecker, they are so funny! :-) For more photos go here: https://treeadryadsdreams.wordpress.com/2017/01/08/natures-little-pleasures-saturday/  Aloha! :-)
On the 9th of January is my birthday and I wanted to do something special something I started a few years ago. I create an event. The first one I ever created was my absolute favorite and dear to me and I still beam with joy on the participation it received. Thank you!!!! The following years I felt well I cannot do the same! Well nope this year this truly is my choice whether I have done it before or not :-) I sat down and asked myself if I could receive anything what would it be? As trees hold a special place in my heart I would like to invite you where ever you are in the world to plant a tree as a gift to me and as thanks for their vital contribution to the world. This would be the best gift I could ever receive and makes my whole being sparkle with joy!!! :-) :-) :-) I invite you to have as much fun as you would like with it…be creative if you so choose! Name your tree, or don’t name it, write something about it a poem, a song, plant it as a celebration of your birth, or just simply plant it. Feel free to share your experience here on the wall or a photo whatever makes your heart sparkle. :-) Location: Worldwide. Day: January 9th. Time: Anytime! Feel free to share this event. May you always have much happiness and laughter in your life, :-) Gaia |
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My name is Gaia (Γαία) and I was born on the beautiful lush island of Kos, along the Aegean sea of Greece, where Hippocrates, the "father of medicine" was born. I am a writer (favorite being children's stories and fairy tales), artist, dancer, modern day Greek Mythologist, nature dweller, photographer, traveler, dreamer, and creator. I love creativity...I love all nature, especially trees. 
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